i’ve been sick all week – low grade fever, sore throat, congestion.
wednesday night, i crashed pretty early.
last night, i barely made it home, i was falling over so bad. i did two side jobs after work, and was barely able to crawl into bed. i woke up at 10 and 11 when my phone rang. i drank two liters of oj, and had some soup, which is pretty much all i’ve eaten in three days (soup that is, not the soup i ate last night).
around 11:30 i woke up again – my fever was in the process of spiking – full auditory hallucinations, all sorts of weird sounds – loss of motor control, incredible fatigue. i went to grab my phone and my arm simply _would_ not move, it felt like it was made out of concrete. i was half-conscious at one point, and started yelling, just to try and drown out the noise that, on some level, i knew was happening in my head. that ended around three, at which point i fell back to sleep.
i figured i’d be better today. so wrong, so so wrong.
my sinuses are crazy, and i’m light headed/dizzy. i’m at work on willpower and dayquil at the moment, but when those wear out i’m going home. i had comp tickets to a show tonight, and i am definitely not going to be going to that. i was supposed to go to a surprise birthday party too…
surprise.
i feel like i am remote-controlling my body. i have vendor meetings at 11 and at 3 – i don’t know if i am going to be able to pull all the way to three.
fuck.
