It is all about uppers and downers, when you are on the fringe.
As most of you know, I spend my life on the fringe between hyper-reality and uselessness. I spend plenty of time _tyring_ to sleep, and not so much time in the actual sleeping. My body has forgotten what sleep, for long periods, is like. The last time I was really sick, I slept almost 12 hours, and I woke up feeling even worse than I did before I went to sleep.
When I get migraines, aside from all the other pain and problems, the sleeplessness is what kills me. I run myself on a pretty tight schedule, and I can’t keep up when the little sleep I do get evaporates, and I’m left with the pain and problems of what denied me the sleep. It shaprens th pain, and increases the side effects’ hold on me.
Today has been intersting – I have been floating between caffeine and painkillers – ups and downs. When my migraines are this bad, I end up superdosing on Motrin and Dramamine, and then spiking no-doz with coffee. I feel like everything is 6″ away from where it really is. I had too many meetings today to call the day – so instead i slip n slide through this alternateing pounding in my head/free floating/drowsiness/manic energy that prevents me from resting my thumbs on my spacebar.
At least today is Friday.
I hope the rest of it slides away.