{"id":2416,"date":"2009-07-07T08:37:00","date_gmt":"2009-07-07T08:37:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/delascabezas.com\/blog\/index.php\/2019\/02\/20\/complication\/"},"modified":"2019-02-20T21:57:22","modified_gmt":"2019-02-20T21:57:22","slug":"complication","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/delascabezas.com\/blog\/index.php\/2009\/07\/07\/complication\/","title":{"rendered":"Complication"},"content":{"rendered":"

As I sit here writing this, my grandfather is dying in Atlanta.<\/p>\n

We are all dying, all the time. In some people, it is just more urgent and immidiate than others. In his case, it sounds fiarly urgent.<\/p>\n

Heart failure, bladder infection, DNR, and ICU are little dots that highlight the urgency – like that sheen of white Bob Ross would always throw on his spruce to make them stand out in contrast to the other happy trees.<\/p>\n

I bitch a lot, and make a lot of noise about the stupidity I waddle through day to day – it is actually really rare that I genuinely hate someone. I dislike people here and there, but hatred is not something I sprinkle casually through my life. It is toxic – hatred always rebounds back at those who keep it.<\/p>\n

To say I hate my grandfather doesn’t fully do the situation justice. I’ve been waiting more than twenty years for this.<\/p>\n

Now that he is going, that hatred is turning back at me. Hating a genetic predecessor, in a way, is hating part of who you are. Tricky business.<\/p>\n

I hope he doesn’t linger.<\/p>\n

The sad part of all this is that I don’t expect my grandmother to survive him long. They have been together more than sixty years. I don’t think she’ll want to keep going, much less know how to.<\/p>\n

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